Sarah’s Creative Journey

MAY 1 Wholly fucking May already!! Need to slow down this week. Had Wednesday off, and don’t think I did anything important, which was fine. Think I need more down time or brain dump time, but I don’t want to give up on art time either because it’s been holding me together and giving myself the time to invest in myself! “There’s an inner piece I own, something in my soul  that they cannot possess so I won’t be afraid  and the darkness will fade because there’s a light in me that shines brightly … precious love I’ll always have inside of me” ~Mariah Carey MAY 4 Trying to embrace the mess of notes everywhere and not being able to always organize everything... MAY 6 Just being my best self as my current state will allow. Letting rest and creativity have it’s time. Giving myself space to be vulnerable and be okay with my awkwardness.  Listening to the rain outside. to Charmbracelet stretching my back tall and straight letting myself breathe deep  getting comfortable at t...

 APRIL 1, 2021 Art (and coffee, and religion, and etc. etc.) has practices and rituals You DO the verb first It’s none of your business if you call yourself an artist or not. You start doing the act, and then someone will call you an artist. “If you wait for someone to give you a job title before you do the work, you might never get the chance to do the work.” -Austin Kleon SHARED EXPERIENCES and friendship “Move slow and fix things” Austin Kleon about his books: “They come out of the urge to share. Not out of the urge to teach.” “The great thing about dead people is they can’t refuse you as a student.” What you need is to become a student.  Really being yourself _ costumes you can put on that help you become more of yourself. Taking all the pieces of yourself to bring it ALL together to make something unique. RuPaul and drag- “we’re all born naked and the rest is drag” APRIL 12, 2021 Buzzed connections sharing memories sipping cocktails and enjoying the campfire  Bo runs...

MARCH 9, 2021 Focusing on the/my physicality and my vulnerability being on the paper/canvas. Lifting up other women (artists or other creatives I look up to and find inspiration in) Using my love of color and high contrast. Falling in love again with the details and the emotional attachment that I have for the women in my life. Showcasing love and support I want to give.  Always wanting to give to the people closest to me, but then learning and wanting to stretch to the greater community that IS around me, and actually SEE them for who they are.  MARCH 22, 2021 Cause it’s all about  the feeling           movement       and focus of language What a different way  to write to connect to express all by  using                    negative space.... MARCH 31, 2021 Andy J Pizza wisdom: “A lot of us start making art to be well known, but as we make art, we find ourselves and we kno...

  March 3, 2021 “Days to years stand gone but when all else has been forgotten,  our song lives on but we have to know some bad times or our lives are incomplete how does our happiness endure love is beauty  love is pure how does a moment last forever when our song lives on” Just watched Howard, about Howard Ashman - lyricist of Little Shop, Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, etc...[Even though those lyrics are written by Tim Rice...] Just feeling the immediate call to creativity and to use my time while it’s here. We never know when our time will be up and how can I just get out what’s truly inside? Coming into my 30’s where I have the confidence and gut to not always listen to people, and feel that I’m okay paving my own path. It will always be a struggle, but I have a solid foundation thanks to my privileges. I don’t want to throw away my shot.  Every year, I grow closer to fully understanding myself.  Letting my muse finally find me in action mor...

FEBRUARY 2, 2021 I love love! I love strong friendships that when someone dies-in books or movies- (sad dramatic story) that they’re mourning someone close to them. And I feel the love they had for each other, and THAT’s what I love. A friend that is there. And seeing how this person is affected so strongly after the friend dies.  Sounds morbid, but I guess I’ve just always been drawn to those deep connections. You open yourself up vulnerably and all that love is received and then returned. Which makes the bond incredibly close.  So how can I take my art there? What do I already have in my art that expresses those feelings?  FEBRUARY 3, 2021 Gah! Figures in lighting and how I can’t express how juicy and exciting it is to draw. To move my pencil or piece of charcoal along the flow and energy of bodies. When you light it to really emphasize the strength or movement, it just dances in front of me, teasing. Which is probably why I love theatre (one reason anyway) so much. The...

Whew. What a journey. We’ve all been going through so many changes recently, and I feel grateful to want to share these tidbits of the journey I am on. I have been writing for myself more lately, but just like my art, I feel the need to just put it out there eventually. Those who find and read this will be looking for it. And if you finish reading what I am sharing, then hopefully I can pass along some (at the very least) inspiration to you. Maybe you will find something helpful in reading about my struggles and the sparks of muse that flow through my fingers.  Here is to not just a new year, but to new confidence and charisma that a third decade can bring.  JANUARY thoughts: JANUARY 5, 2021 It’s amazing to watch interviews and think, “holy shit these people (often celebrities) have done a little bit of everything! But then I realize that thought is a bit of a high standard. I think because they are famous, they are offered a lot more one-off opportunities to do different thin...

  https://austinkleon.com/2020/09/09/15-years-of-blogging-and-3-reasons-to-keep-going/ Well!  It feels so long ago that I've written, even though it hasn't even been 6 months.  So many events have happened this summer and this year alone, that while I think I've been creating more and doing daily creative things, I have put some things to the side. Though that is not necessarily a bad thing.  While this year has been particularly long and painful, I have dug into learning. Learning about white supremacy and racism. Relearning history. Learning even more about myself and my surroundings. Just recently has blogging gained my attention again. One, because of this new art project I've been figuring out. Two, because of Austin Kleon (hence the link above).  The new art project involves more research on my part because I want to call attention to these people for specific reasons. I want to take what I have learned in the past few months and share it with others. Art ...